wally and grace

I brought some fish yesterday, redirect to my dA for more:

• My fish
• A Christmas for my fish
  

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a song that saved my life

over a month ago I was going through a really bad patch. A friend of mine e-mailed me out of concern. He emailed me a copy of this song:

Skillet- The last night

[ listen to it on YouTube ]

You come to me with scars on your wrist,

You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this.

“I just came to say goodbye,

I didn’t want you to see me cry, I’m fine”

But I know it’s a lie

This is the last night you’ll spend alone

Look me in the eye so I know you know

I’m everywhere you want me to be

The last night you’ll spend alone

I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go

I’m everything you need me to be

Your parents say everything is your fault

But they don’t know you like I know you; they don’t know you at all

“I’m so sick of when they say:

‘It’s just a phase, you’ll be okay. You’re fine’”

But I know it’s a lie

This is the last night you’ll spend alone

Look me in the eye so I know you know

I’m everywhere you want me to be

The last night you’ll spend alone

I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go

I’m everything you need me to be

The last night away from me

The night is so long when everything’s wrong

And if you give me your hand, I’ll help you hold on

Tonight, tonight

This is the last night you’ll spend alone

Look me in the eye so I know you know

I’m everywhere you want me to be

The last night you’ll spend alone

I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go

I’m everything you need me to be

I won’t let you say goodbye

And I’ll be your reason why

The last night away from me, away from me

First of all I need to confirm that I was not suicidal. I am not a suicidal person, because I would be absolutely scared to a) die, and b) face God after I did something like that.

Now before you get all angry about this being a song that sounds suicidal, it has a fantastic point to it.

I just think this is a fantastic song, because it has so much truth in it. God is everything we need. We will never be alone. It's just wow. Self explanatory. This song made me cry, it made me feel valued, and a bit special.

So the thanks for this goes out to Tim. This song 'saved my life', share it with a friend today and save theirs.

walking on egg shells

Have you ever felt like to be in ministry you need to be almost perfect or fit into a certain criterea?

I strongly believe that you will never find a church that is 100% perfect. We are made to be imperfect; it is God that makes us perfect in his sight.

So the criteria I've noticed? Of course firstly you need to be a fully committed Christian, and that is definitely always going to be a must have, and I fully agree. Other things that you maybe shouldn’t do are date a non-Christian, watch certain movies, gamble, etc etc. I guess what is most scary is that I could tick a few of these off, that if I were to have such a place in ministry, I’d be long gone. I think that it is important though to have these rules, because ministry is where you become a role model to other people, however what about the sins that we can hide deep in our hearts that nobody sees? The lust, greed, and everything else?

So this one day, I decided that I wanted to live my life like this: I tried not to sin. I tried not to do anything that if anyone found out would kick me out of my imaginary ministry. And I can tell you, with all that was going on at the time, and with everything life threw at me, it felt like I was walking on egg shells. Soon I realised that it was hard not to sin, and that we were made sinful, and I’d just have to live with it. I also realised that I was too busy trying not to do things that wouldn’t let me be in this ministry, that I forgot all about what it was that God actually required of me.

So, what is ministry? I believe that ministry can be a leadership, or ministering to ministerees (I just made that word up) of any shape, size or form. I don’t think you need to be up on a stage to be involved in ministry. I don’t think you even need a police check. Ministry can be one beggar, trying to help another beggar to find bread. I don’t think you need to be ‘official’ in anything to be in a ministry. Jesus ministry is for everyone.

We are all sinners. The one in ministry is no better than the one in the pew. I think that it is important for those leaders to be an example of Gods saving grace. That they are not worth it, but because of God’s grace in their life, they are justified and made righteous.

Jesus has called us to have a free life, that doesn't mean being reckless, but it doesnt mean walking on eggshells either.

Guess what! If you’re a Christian, you’re in ministry. It’s our job to tell people about Jesus, and build up those who already know about Him. So how is your ministry going, anyway?