Friday, July 06, 2007

The song

This morning I was getting ready to go down into the 'city', innocently listening to Adelaide's Life FM. Then they told me something about air piano fingers of Vannessa Carlton, and then, I heard it, the song.

I practically flew accross my bedroom to change the station. I hate this song a lot. It's a great song, but the memories it brings back are rather painful.

I can remember it so clearly, this song playing on the radio. It was raining, and we left from under the car park, I was in the back seat of my mums car. I was 15. I looked behind back at the hospital I'd just visited, as my mum excellerated down the busy North terrace in Adelaide. Rain was falling on the window as I looked back, and saw the hospital dissapear from my sight, this music playing making the scene ever so much more memorable. I didn't know that this would be the last time I would see her.

The next week she took a turn for the worst. My mother rushed back to this hospital to be by her side, while I was staying at a friends house. I didn't know how to deal with such grief and the possibility of her passing away just didn't seem real. It still doesn't.

My mother rang to tell me it was just a matter of time now until she passed away. I just sat in my friends lounge room, feeling rather numb to the possibility. That song begins to play again, as it was a backing track for a commercial for Blue Heelers. It seemed that this add was on every ad break. Because of its repetition it stuck so clearly in my mind.

I went to bed on my friends floor that night, staring at the ceiling, but trying to pray, not sure what exactly to pray: do I ask God for a miracle? I remember pouring myself right into God that night just praying so hard that I could somehow get some sleep. I remember it so clearly, my friend was asleep, and in my mind I was praying "Thankyou God that You hold her life in Your hands.." and as I prayed that, I heard their house phone ring, and instantly I knew. It would be THE phone call. I didn't hesitate, and just got up. I heard my friends mum answer the phone and say, "oh no.." I got up, and smiled like a dog that was about to get a treat as she handed me the phone. My mum's words were like arrows that hit me right in the heart,

"Sammy, Grandma's just passed away..."

I cried, but it was one of the rare occasions I did. I didn't like to show emotion in front of anybody. That song began to be so loud in my eyes, adding to all of the emotion.

It has been nearly five years, and it still hurts like the day she passed away.

It still doesn't feel real. I miss you...

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Rated G

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Only has the words pain and kill in it twice

Thanks Aaron

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

No longer from the festy state

Spatch: "Is anyone here a fully licenced driver?"
Me: "ooh! Yes I am!"
Spatch: "Fantastic! Good..."
Me: "Umm.. But one thing, I'm under 21, is that a problem?"
Spatch: *looks confused*
Steff: "It's not as stupid as it sounds!!!"

Today's adventures found me at the Vicroads office, surrendering myself to become, dare I say it, Victorian!

Yep, poor old Roy now is driving around with a plate that says "Victoria, The Place to be". What rubbish! I was going to get 'pop plates' and get Roy as my number plate, but it would cost over $300... No thanks. That almost would register Roy for a year! I had to get the plates off myself. Lucky I thought ahead and brought screwdrivers. I felt so, like, manly, or something. It took me ages, but I felt a great sense of self satisfaction once I had!

Roy also has something new attatched to him. Yes, that's right. P plates (thankyou Hamish!).

Most people are excited when they get their P's. I've already had them. But there's not too much of a problem, because Victorian P platers can drive faster than SA P platers, and because I don't drink, it won't really bother me. I just liked the claim of having a full licence when I was under 21. But, alas, you cannot be under 21 and be a Victorian fully licenced driver. I should be thankful that the day I turn 21 I get a full licence again, most victorian P platers don't have that.

But sigh, it's not as cool as people pointing out my car in the car park cos it has the SA plates. People can't wonder why I'm fully licenced anymore. Bring on November!!!

The good thing about all of this, My licence is free until March next year (when it expires in SA), as with my RAA, well, now RACV insurance. Also, the money I have just spent will be reimbursed by Transport SA :D Thank God that He provides!

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

feeling a little older than I am...

Luke 2
41Every year his parents went to Jerusalem for the Feast of the Passover. 42When he was twelve years old, they went up to the Feast, according to the custom. 43After the Feast was over, while his parents were returning home, the boy Jesus stayed behind in Jerusalem, but they were unaware of it. 44Thinking he was in their company, they traveled on for a day. Then they began looking for him among their relatives and friends.

45When they did not find him, they went back to Jerusalem to look for him. 46After three days they found him in the temple courts, sitting among the teachers, listening to them and asking them questions. 47Everyone who heard him was amazed at his understanding and his answers.

48When his parents saw him, they were astonished. His mother said to him, "Son, why have you treated us like this? Your father and I have been anxiously searching for you."

49"Why were you searching for me?" he asked. "Didn't you know I had to be in my Father's house?"

***
"Age doesn't matter when it comes to the kind of person you are"

This passage came up at church one day, and it got me thinking. The main point of the passage was that Jesus was so smart at such a young age, that He was 'wowing' the elders of a church that were much older than He was.

I just got thinking, as I often do. I remember reading this verse as a younger christian in my trusty Good News Bible, and they had a simple illustration of Jesus talking to these older people. In a way I always picture myself there.

I look at my walk, and the people who have come in and out, and have noticed that the ones that have had the biggest impact have rarely been under 30. I have watched myself go in and out of patterns of confiding in people that are well beyond my years. That's not to say that I am not blessed with awesome, beautiful friends of my own age.

But I am starting to see a pattern, a trend, in which I seem to rely on people who are much older than me, and this is nothing new. Often I will find I almost prefer the company of older people. But what I wonder is, really, why? Is it because I have constantly in my past been let down by people my age? That I was bullied at school? Or is it just a difference in attitudes or values?

Hmmm...

copyright THIS!!!

Very funny Amil, also known as switch! hahahaha.
Clever, clever, you had me going!

Monday, July 02, 2007

Sammy gets a job

Well, I innocently made a blog post last night, and now it has been edited due to a threat of being sued or arrested.

I am not sure what caused the comment, whether it be the picture, or my use of puns. But nethertheless I have removed it all to start again, it's better to be safe than sorry. My suggestion for next time is to tell me what exactly I am infringing, and I can just remove it.

So, although this blog post is officially mundane and boring, the point still remains, that I have a casual job at maccas.

(the first two comments were made before this blog was modified)

Sunday, July 01, 2007

yum yum salad!

your voice

I haven't heard this song in about 3 years...



Your voice is
The voice that
Commanded the universe to be
Your voice is
The voice that
Is speaking words of love to me

How can it be?

Awesome God
Holy God
I worship you in wonder
Awesome God
Holy God
As you draw near I’m humbled
By your majesty
And the mystery
Of your great love for me

Your arms are
The arms that
Hung shining stars in deepest space
Your arms are
The arms that
Surround me in a warm embrace

Amazing grace

Awesome God
Holy God
I worship you in wonder
Awesome God
Holy God
As you draw near I’m humbled

Awesome God
Holy God
I worship you in wonder
Awesome God
Holy God
As you draw near I’m humbled
By your majesty
And the mystery
Of your great love for me

some background noise?