wiiouch!

who needs a gym when you have the wii. I was going mad in baseball New Years Eve, and I woke up with the SOREST arms. I woke up this morning and they're even looking bruised.

Ouch. :(

a bronze babe and a chocolate Steff

On Wednesday night, Steff and I dyed our hair at about 1 in the morning. Oh the things you do when you're tired and under the influence of Sammy!

The lovely Steff went a lovely brown chocolate, while I went for a bronze babe. (How wrong does that sound!?) The results were impressive.

We also watched a retro movie called Down with Love. Well, Steff watched it, I slept through parts, munched on chicken twisties to try and stay awake, and still managed to get the general jist of the movie. It inspired me to invest in a beret.

4-5am saw us in bed, sending hilarious 1c texts across the house. I somehow managed to get up at 10am and cleaned parts of the house.

Pictures? Well, because it's either my dial-up or blogger being stupid I have uploaded them to my deviantart. Click here to see before and after pics. Click here to see even more pics!!!

Your Hair Should Be Orange

Expressive, deep, and one of a kind.You pull off "weird" well - hardly anyone notices.

What's" Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

so this is christmas...

I have noticed that so many people get caught up in the commercialism and business of Christmas. It doesn't have to be like this, there is a choice.

In John Lennon's song "So this is Christmas", the end line repeats and fades into the end of the song: "war is over, if you want it". It's true. Christmas is like a war. A war with commercialism. But it doesn't have to be like that at all. It is only this commercialised stress because that's what you make it. The war can be over, but only if you want it...

community scale

This is what I call the 'community scale'. The orange pentagon is the church, the green is our community (not the church community, for example, for me, it would be Greater City of Bendigo), and then the blue is more on the world scale.

This has come from me thinking about how I see churches 'reach out' to the community. Vinyard Church run breakfast for people who don't have enough to eat, the salvos, well, do lots. And our church? I'm not sure what we do. I guess we are reaching out to the community of Epsom by planting a church there.

Me, personally on the scale? I can be in many places. I can be very church-centric, hiding between the walls of the church. I am involved in a mission that is reaching out to kids from Bendigo, and then then I am a bit in the blue, too. I'm here and there in SA, I sponsor a child in Senegal, and I plan to go back to Indonesia.

Jesus told us to go out into the world. Where are you?

the worship language of Sammy

after God's own heart.... by ~notsoemobadger on deviantART

^ If you can't see the picture in the embedded object up there, click here.

I have realised that I need to paint more.

I believe we have different 'worship langauges', and I don't think they should be limited by what a book says, if that is there are only 5. Some people do it through singing, some dancing, some through conversation (another one of mine).

Worship is a when you are 'connected' with God. I discovered my connection when I painted this picture.

I have always liked art (yet this doesn't mean I am good at it!). It is a way I can just sit back, relax, and draw/paint what's on my mind. I notice that when I don't do it once in a while, I begin to get agitated! I felt like I could really connect with God by doing this. I listened to a sermon, and some music while doing it. I could pray, I expressed to God through what I was doing. Worship is a verb, it's an action!

The painting I did this morning was inspired by David, known as a Man after Gods own Heart. And you can see that through the kind of things he wrote in the bible (if this is wrong please correct me!). That's what I want to be. A woman after God's own heart.

My worship language is seemingly art, and I'm happy with that.

smokin'

Last Friday I spent all day in the smoke with my friend Cara.

The smoke was so thick, you could barely see 5m in front of you.

This was the cathedral at about 11am,



and this is the same thing a few hours later..


If it is this bad here, it must be really bad where the fires are, over 300 km away from here...

wally and grace

I brought some fish yesterday, redirect to my dA for more:

• My fish
• A Christmas for my fish
  

Feel free to comment here

a song that saved my life

over a month ago I was going through a really bad patch. A friend of mine e-mailed me out of concern. He emailed me a copy of this song:

Skillet- The last night

[ listen to it on YouTube ]

You come to me with scars on your wrist,

You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this.

“I just came to say goodbye,

I didn’t want you to see me cry, I’m fine”

But I know it’s a lie

This is the last night you’ll spend alone

Look me in the eye so I know you know

I’m everywhere you want me to be

The last night you’ll spend alone

I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go

I’m everything you need me to be

Your parents say everything is your fault

But they don’t know you like I know you; they don’t know you at all

“I’m so sick of when they say:

‘It’s just a phase, you’ll be okay. You’re fine’”

But I know it’s a lie

This is the last night you’ll spend alone

Look me in the eye so I know you know

I’m everywhere you want me to be

The last night you’ll spend alone

I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go

I’m everything you need me to be

The last night away from me

The night is so long when everything’s wrong

And if you give me your hand, I’ll help you hold on

Tonight, tonight

This is the last night you’ll spend alone

Look me in the eye so I know you know

I’m everywhere you want me to be

The last night you’ll spend alone

I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go

I’m everything you need me to be

I won’t let you say goodbye

And I’ll be your reason why

The last night away from me, away from me

First of all I need to confirm that I was not suicidal. I am not a suicidal person, because I would be absolutely scared to a) die, and b) face God after I did something like that.

Now before you get all angry about this being a song that sounds suicidal, it has a fantastic point to it.

I just think this is a fantastic song, because it has so much truth in it. God is everything we need. We will never be alone. It's just wow. Self explanatory. This song made me cry, it made me feel valued, and a bit special.

So the thanks for this goes out to Tim. This song 'saved my life', share it with a friend today and save theirs.

walking on egg shells

Have you ever felt like to be in ministry you need to be almost perfect or fit into a certain criterea?

I strongly believe that you will never find a church that is 100% perfect. We are made to be imperfect; it is God that makes us perfect in his sight.

So the criteria I've noticed? Of course firstly you need to be a fully committed Christian, and that is definitely always going to be a must have, and I fully agree. Other things that you maybe shouldn’t do are date a non-Christian, watch certain movies, gamble, etc etc. I guess what is most scary is that I could tick a few of these off, that if I were to have such a place in ministry, I’d be long gone. I think that it is important though to have these rules, because ministry is where you become a role model to other people, however what about the sins that we can hide deep in our hearts that nobody sees? The lust, greed, and everything else?

So this one day, I decided that I wanted to live my life like this: I tried not to sin. I tried not to do anything that if anyone found out would kick me out of my imaginary ministry. And I can tell you, with all that was going on at the time, and with everything life threw at me, it felt like I was walking on egg shells. Soon I realised that it was hard not to sin, and that we were made sinful, and I’d just have to live with it. I also realised that I was too busy trying not to do things that wouldn’t let me be in this ministry, that I forgot all about what it was that God actually required of me.

So, what is ministry? I believe that ministry can be a leadership, or ministering to ministerees (I just made that word up) of any shape, size or form. I don’t think you need to be up on a stage to be involved in ministry. I don’t think you even need a police check. Ministry can be one beggar, trying to help another beggar to find bread. I don’t think you need to be ‘official’ in anything to be in a ministry. Jesus ministry is for everyone.

We are all sinners. The one in ministry is no better than the one in the pew. I think that it is important for those leaders to be an example of Gods saving grace. That they are not worth it, but because of God’s grace in their life, they are justified and made righteous.

Jesus has called us to have a free life, that doesn't mean being reckless, but it doesnt mean walking on eggshells either.

Guess what! If you’re a Christian, you’re in ministry. It’s our job to tell people about Jesus, and build up those who already know about Him. So how is your ministry going, anyway?

Day by Day

(I'm so sorry about my use of you tube, its the only means I can find - can you help me out, Tim?)

Point of Grace - Day by Day
I'm not unhappy but I'd take the train today
If you'd let me
If you'd let me
They may be clapping for me but I wait for you to come get me
Come, come get me

Cause day by day you're coming closer
Making our way clearer and straighter
Turning our faces into the light
And I can't wait to fall at your glory
On my face, God of the morning
You're coming closer
Day by day

Somebody told me I could travel the world
To find beauty
To find beauty
But to behold it I would have to carry it within me
Yeah well it's in me

Cause day by day you're coming closer
Making our way clearer and straighter
Turning our faces into the light
And I can't wait to fall at your glory
On my face, God of the morning

You're coming closer
Day by day

Give me a mission if I've still got the time
Cause I'm open
Yeah I'm open
Be my vision and I'll be your delight
Cause I'm going wherever you're going

Turning faces into the light
And I can't wait to fall at your glory
On my face, God of the morning
You're coming closer
Day by day

Cause day by day you're coming closer
Making our way clearer and straighter
Turning our faces into the light
And I can't wait to fall at your glory
On my face, God of the morning
You're coming closer
Day by day

Cause day by day you're coming closer
Making our way clearer and straighter
Turning our faces into the light
And I can't wait to fall at your glory
On my face, God of the morning
You're coming closer
Day by day

[I encourage you to listen to this song and read/sing along to the lyrics]

I heard this song on lifeFM today. I don't know if I'm getting caught up in the wonder of the song, but it has made me think.

This song seems to be that we cant wait to fall at Gods glory, yet there's worlds to be saved, and we're to busy sitting and waiting. This can very much be applied to my own life.

The end of the world really scares me. Like, I know i shouldn't be worried, but quite honestly, I dont know what is going to happen! But again this is something I know that I trust God on..

"And I can't wait to fall at your glory, on my face, God of the morning, You're coming closer, day by day"

This line gives me a bit of comfort. Being a bit of a sucker for the 'supernatural' stuff of God, I think that its going to be an absolutely amazing thing to actually FALL on our faces to God! And we cant even to begin to comprehend how, why and what! And despite we probably think that wont be that good now, I'm pretty sure when we're at that point we'll not be able to do anything but worship God for ever and ever!

*insert bible verses here*

Comments or anything anyone wants to add?

The Abused

"When you were abused, so was He..."

I came up with the idea for this drawing on a bus last week, while I was pondering about how horrible my somebody had been to me.

I felt violated, upset and this really hurt. I felt like I'd been emotionally and verbally abused.

This made me think about abuse a bit. Millions of children all over the world are abused in many different ways, be it physically, emotionally, spiritually or verbally, or however else. Emotional abuse is the leader in child abuse, with 34% of cases. [read this PDF!]

In a spiritual sense, we always would tell someone that God is there. And if you try to visualise it, where do you think he would be? I think that many would visualise Him standing there watching. I don't think that at all. I think that Jesus was there, in that situation, feeling the same, if not more, pain that you were. In fact, there would be NOTHING he wouldn't understand. That's what I'm trying to represent in the painting. All those scars, he has them, and more.

"If God really cared about me he wouldn't have let this happen to me." My friend, he does care. In fact one day you will probably realise something good come out of this situation. It could be you become a good friend for someone else. Like Adrian Rowse says, use the situation to get closer to God.

Abuse is wrong. Tell someone about it. I cannot stress this enough. Be it you or a friend, or yourself, tell someone! (Take the risk) Often this is easier said than done.

This is something I am afraid of. In 2 years I will be a fully qualified teacher. Child abuse often goes unnoticed in so many children. How can I put a stop to that?

Anyway, I'll leave it there, but I'd really appreciate some comments on this.

Isaiah 53:4-5

4 Surely he took up our infirmities
and carried our sorrows,
yet we considered him stricken by God,
smitten by him, and afflicted.

5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.

Singular hope

I heard this really good sermon by a guest speaker at my church a few weeks ago. He spoke about being 'single', and it wasn't merely aimed at young people. I didn't realise that so many older people are single, and this can be for various reasons such as they never married, widowed, divorced, etc. I am not single, nor do intend on becoming that. But something I have learnt from this is that we all nonetheless in a relationship need that 'God space'.

The focus scripture of this is 1 Corinthians 7:17-24, 32-35:

17Nevertheless, each one should retain the place in life that the Lord assigned to him and to which God has called him. This is the rule I lay down in all the churches.
18Was a man already circumcised when he was called? He should not become uncircumcised. Was a man uncircumcised when he was called? He should not be circumcised.
19Circumcision is nothing and uncircumcision is nothing. Keeping God's commands is what counts.
20Each one should remain in the situation which he was in when God called him.
21Were you a slave when you were called? Don't let it trouble you—although if you can gain your freedom, do so.
22For he who was a slave when he was called by the Lord is the Lord's freedman; similarly, he who was a free man when he was called is Christ's slave.
23You were bought at a price; do not become slaves of men.
24Brothers, each man, as responsible to God, should remain in the situation God called him to
...
32I would like you to be free from concern. An unmarried man is concerned about the Lord's affairs—how he can please the Lord.
33But a married man is concerned about the affairs of this world—how he can please his wife— 34and his interests are divided. An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord's affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. But a married woman is concerned about the affairs of this world—how she can please her husband.
35I am saying this for your own good, not to restrict you, but that you may live in a right way in undivided devotion to the Lord.

Going back to verse 17:

Nevertheless, each one should retain the place in life that the Lord assigned to him and to which God has called him. This is the rule I lay down in all the churches.

We are 'called' every day. For example, what is the role of a teacher, mother, father, .. Mother Theresa? Now Mother Theresa, her calling would have been very different if she did not have kids. In a biblical sense, Hagar raised Ishmael alone, Naomi raised her sons alone and Moses was raised by Pharaohs daughter!

So, is being single a good or bad thing?
Going back to verses 32-34:

I would like you to be free from concern. An unmarried man is concerned about the Lord's affairs—how he can please the Lord. But a married man is concerned about the affairs of this world—how he can please his wife— and his interests are divided. An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord's affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. But a married woman is concerned about the affairs of this world—how she can please her husband.

In this scripture, Paul is implying that it can be better to NOT be married! Like, woah. Being single (if just for now, times to come, or even for ever) can be a chance to devote and grow in God. Now that actually sounds good. Some people are actually single because they feel they want to grow in Christ.

Another passage noteworthy at the moment, Phillippians 4:12-14.

12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.
13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
14Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles.

Coming out of a failed marriage people can feel like a 'second class christian'. This can usually be the way people treat others.. in a church!! God shows us grace and love. Do we show the same back?

So, does it feel like your dreams are fading away? I know it sounds cliché, but PRAY. God fufills the desires of our heart! And He uses circumstances! Jesus didn't promise a care free life, but one that is full in christ!

The hurting

I've been thinking about why people church-hop so much.

People go to one church, they get what they can from that church, until they've got there entertainment from that church, and move on to the next one. This happens over and over again. Church isnt about sitting back and watching, taking in, and getting spoon fed. I really, really believe that it is about relationship. Because God didnt put us on this earth to be alone, and made us to be not only in relationship with him, but also with others. And when people come to a church, and cant get a relationship, this can cause them to leave. I would rather go to a desolate old church with an organ, and have relationship with people, than go to a massive church with millions of people, have awesome 'annointed' worship, but nobody notice me.

2 Corinthians 9:13: Because of the service by which you have proved yourselves, men will praise God for the obedience that accompanies your confession of the gospel of Christ, and for your generosity in sharing with them and with everyone else.

A lady I know used to have this 'gift', when she knew if someone was hurting, or in trouble, and she continuously would be getting these 'vibes' about this one girl in our youth group. I'm pretty sure she still does to this day. I dont know if this is a spiritual gift, or just something God stirs in your spirit. And how to fix things when you feel like someone is hurting? I believe it is prayer, understanding, compassion, love, and relationship. People think that just by praying for someone, it will fix things. Dont get me wrong, it can, and prayer is wonderful and works! But dont limit God in the ways he works. God can work through YOU! My main point here is relationship is important.

God may put someone on your heart that you just can't stop thinking about (realistically speaking, Im not talking about like being in love, more out of concern or something.) When our youth group in my home town had just been established, and the bunch of us were only month-old christiansour youth leader was explaining to us the above concept, of how sometimes thats how God wants us to pray for someone. One of the girls said that she had one of her friends on her mind constantly in the past week. So we prayed for that girl. The next day, on the front page of the newspaper was a report of a murder. The person murdered? That girls cousin.. See what I mean! A bit too freaky to be a coincidence?

The Dish

This morning I was procrastinating (as I am now) and watching TV, when an ad came on for New South Wales tourism. Now, I dont have much of a knowledge about New South Wales, in fact, my only travels usually get to about Moama. I realised today that there is a dream of mine that has not yet been fufilled.

What's that dream? I know that this may seem strange, but, I really really want to go to Parkes!

Why Parkes? Do you ask? Because I want to go and see the massive sattelite dish! Have you ever seen the movie, The Dish? Well, since it came out in 2001ish, I've always wanted to go there!

I was pondering a visit there this morning, and then realised that this dream was always a dream I had when I lived in South Australia, and I havent thought about it up until today in Victoria. And to that I realised that I am probably not that far away from Parkes anymore!!

I was wrong. It's probably about 8 hours away. Dang.

the 'twice a year' christian society

This is a rough translation of what we were translating in my Indonesian class on tuesday:

A: Good day, sir. Why on earth are you all dressed up like that?
B: You've forgotten? Indeed, it is friday! You must be going to the mosque. But hang on, you don't go to the mosque, or even to church, am I right?
A: It doesnt matter! It's important we believe in God. And its important we respect religion and the beliefs as other people.
B: What meaning is there in religion if you don't follow it! It's just as bad as being an unbeliever!
A: Yeah, but, you know, I'm not saying I'm a 'strict' follower of a religion. Gosh, praying five times a day [this is what muslims believe in] is too hard for me! After all, God doesnt care.. As long as I'm generous!
B: Far out! Why aren't you obediant to this? Aren't you afraid of hell?
A: Nah! My view on life is pretty different.
B: Good grief. [etc etc cant be bothered translating the rest]

People have that view in western culture too. If we're 'nice' and apply good moral behaviour, and stay out of prison we're going to all be okay. A lot of people call themselves christians, but are the 'twice a year' ones (on easter and christmas). Australia is known to be a christian nation. But there is so much more depth to christianity than meets the eye. Then there's some christians that 'write their own bible', which means they either manipulate or remove things from the word of God to justify their behaviour. Sadly enough, I have seen this done, in a church in this city. I used to go to a church where it was almost like it was just a 'nice thing to do' to go to church, and people were astonished that I'd be at a church without my family. Because my parents never went to church! It was really just good morale to go to church, but talking about relationship with God, or the holy spirit, was discouraged.

People are often given the misconception that Christianity can be a bit like Islam in the fact that there's rules and things you need to do to get to God, to 'earn' that place. Like that whole praying 5 times a day with Islam. People think that they have to 'have no fun' because they are a christian. But this is a lie, because Jesus died so that we could have life to the fullest. Now, this doesnt mean everything will be easy (another big misconception about christianity), but you have that secret weapon - God. There's no steps to being a christian. It's a yes to God, believing and confessing that Jesus is Lord. That said, by actually following the bible, would probably be most beneficial for your walk.

Have a look at these:

[Matthew 20:1-16]

[Luke 14:28-33]

Leaving unchanged

The pastor at my church said something this morning which really stood out to me. I can highly relate to him, and see it often in todays church society:

There are churches that are very traditional, if you speak you will be shown the door. 12pm comes, the service ends, people leave unchanged.

However on the other hand...

There are churches that are very 'new age'. Every week end there is shouting, falling down, speaking in tongues and what not. 12pm comes, the service ends, people leave unchanged.

Thats so very true.

Five Love Languages

Stolen from Dawn, I dont think its very accurate, though. I didn't know which ones to pick half the time...

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Acts of Service:		8
Physical Touch:		4
Words of Affirmation:		4
Receiving Gifts:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

All things retro!

I got a new blog!!! (yeah another one)

http://allthingsretro.blogspot.com

All fall short

In the recent past, a friend came to me and revealed something about them that would have been hard to tell someone.

What they told me was something that often christians would react in a way which would blind them from their sight.

But all I felt was love for this person. A feeling of compassion came over me.

In the past (just not as recent), I came to a friend and revealed something about myself that was extremely hard to tell someone.

I dont exactly know what that persons reaction was in their head or their heart, but I do know that no matter how bad whatever was going on, they still very much have loved me and maintained a lot of respect despite my flaws.

It happens a lot in todays society. I see people walk away from God, or struggle with something, and sometimes christians can react in a way that isnt so loving, and judgemental.

We need to keep reminding ourselves that we have all fallen short of the glory of God, that we should not judge, or God will also judge us, and that we should love each other or we're going to be useless. It also says in the bible to help others that go through all kind of things.

Nobodies sin is greater or lesser than yours. WE ARE ALL SINNERS! And there's nothing we can do about it. But God is an ever-forgiving God.

I guess what Im trying to say is dont turn your back on people with some problems. Its a mistake too many christians make today. We say we are loving, and compassionate but we turn the struggling away.

I guess this leads up to what the pastor will be speaking about at my church in the upcoming sunday night services about Issues todays church faces. At first I thought this was going to be very confronting, but I think that it is going to be really good to hear.

Jesus Camp

There's a movie coming out in America called Jesus camp. Its about training children to become "soldiors of God". I think it would be worth a look, as I love getting into discussions about this. Is it right or is it wrong?

Information and trailers here.